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Hello everyone 
Only one year has passed since my last journal entry, that might be a new record!
Who am I kidding, I might be the laziest person on earth. I graduated from school in March and I could have drawn all summer long, but instead I pretty much had no motivation whatsoever and failed to use the time I had
The best I could manage was sketching a load of anatomy stuff in my sketching book for a month before I lost motivation again. Then I did lots of cosplay stuff for a while (which I will post here too someday) and now, suddenly, I'm in the mood of drawing again. Which is good, no question, just that it came too late.
But the reason I wanted to write a journal is not my new motivation but something that just happened to me. In search for watercolour paper I found my old works again. Works from years ago.
And I must say, I was quite shocked. No, not because they were THAAAAAT bad (although there were some of these as well
), but because they were surprisingly good and yet I never posted them. Some of them are better than what I posted here during the same period of time and I wonder why I never showed anything of it. Most of the work is Naruto fanart stuff and of course there are mistakes in it and of course I could draw it better today, but still... considering some of them are like 5 years old, I get the feeling that I haven't improved much, haha (Although I am definitely sure that I have improved.)
I'm not sure yet if I'm feeling depressed or motivated because of that But seeing all those old works made me nostalgic and I could remember drawing almost every single one of them. That's what I actually love about fanart - you put your heart into drawing your favourite characters because, even though they are a work of fiction, you become attached to these characters and letting them come to life with your own hands, in your art, is such a rewarding feeling. It might be even totally different to creating your own characters. At least that's how I feel about it.
On another note, a few days ago I watched the first Naruto movie and I lost count of how many times I have seen that movie. But I still love it, it is one of the very few movies that I can watch over and over again without getting bored by it. I guess it is because of the really nice story which fits so well in the Narutoverse (unlike all the other movies) and the constellation and the interactions of the characters. But maybe it is because it reminds me so much of the very beginning of Naruto (the Land of Water arc), which is still my all time favourite part of the whole series.
I don't know if you all follow the japanese manga, so I will not spoil anything, but the recent events are probably the reason of why I became so nostalgic about naruto again,
[SPOILER: obviously because of the whole Obito revelation, but in particular it's that one scene where Naruto says that he won't let his friends get killed and Kakashi remembers the time when he said those exact words to Naruto. It might be only about 3-4 years in Narutoverse, but it's been so much longer for most of us readers. That iconic scene from the very beginning, I-- I don't even-- Kishimoto, STAHP! ALL THESE FEELS D: It actually made me cry. SPOILER END]
A lot of people are complaining about the course the manga has taken but I absolutely love it so far, although I'm still waiting for a lot of answers.
Nostalgia is such a weird feeling. You go all "aaaaw" when you come across something that reminds you of your past and your youth and I love this feeling. Though often enough it makes me sad as well.
How do you feel about nostalgia?
Thank you for reading! As soon as I'm done with drawing artwork for my university application, I'll do some more fanart. I hope I will never lose the motivation to draw again
I hope you all have a great day/week/month/rest of the year!
Ren
Only one year has passed since my last journal entry, that might be a new record!
Who am I kidding, I might be the laziest person on earth. I graduated from school in March and I could have drawn all summer long, but instead I pretty much had no motivation whatsoever and failed to use the time I had
The best I could manage was sketching a load of anatomy stuff in my sketching book for a month before I lost motivation again. Then I did lots of cosplay stuff for a while (which I will post here too someday) and now, suddenly, I'm in the mood of drawing again. Which is good, no question, just that it came too late. But the reason I wanted to write a journal is not my new motivation but something that just happened to me. In search for watercolour paper I found my old works again. Works from years ago.
And I must say, I was quite shocked. No, not because they were THAAAAAT bad (although there were some of these as well
), but because they were surprisingly good and yet I never posted them. Some of them are better than what I posted here during the same period of time and I wonder why I never showed anything of it. Most of the work is Naruto fanart stuff and of course there are mistakes in it and of course I could draw it better today, but still... considering some of them are like 5 years old, I get the feeling that I haven't improved much, haha (Although I am definitely sure that I have improved.)I'm not sure yet if I'm feeling depressed or motivated because of that
But seeing all those old works made me nostalgic and I could remember drawing almost every single one of them. That's what I actually love about fanart - you put your heart into drawing your favourite characters because, even though they are a work of fiction, you become attached to these characters and letting them come to life with your own hands, in your art, is such a rewarding feeling. It might be even totally different to creating your own characters. At least that's how I feel about it.On another note, a few days ago I watched the first Naruto movie and I lost count of how many times I have seen that movie. But I still love it, it is one of the very few movies that I can watch over and over again without getting bored by it. I guess it is because of the really nice story which fits so well in the Narutoverse (unlike all the other movies) and the constellation and the interactions of the characters. But maybe it is because it reminds me so much of the very beginning of Naruto (the Land of Water arc), which is still my all time favourite part of the whole series.
I don't know if you all follow the japanese manga, so I will not spoil anything, but the recent events are probably the reason of why I became so nostalgic about naruto again,
[SPOILER: obviously because of the whole Obito revelation, but in particular it's that one scene where Naruto says that he won't let his friends get killed and Kakashi remembers the time when he said those exact words to Naruto. It might be only about 3-4 years in Narutoverse, but it's been so much longer for most of us readers. That iconic scene from the very beginning, I-- I don't even-- Kishimoto, STAHP! ALL THESE FEELS D: It actually made me cry. SPOILER END]
A lot of people are complaining about the course the manga has taken but I absolutely love it so far, although I'm still waiting for a lot of answers.
Nostalgia is such a weird feeling. You go all "aaaaw" when you come across something that reminds you of your past and your youth and I love this feeling. Though often enough it makes me sad as well.
How do you feel about nostalgia?
Thank you for reading! As soon as I'm done with drawing artwork for my university application, I'll do some more fanart. I hope I will never lose the motivation to draw again
I hope you all have a great day/week/month/rest of the year!
Ren
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Heyho, all of you
It's been an awfully long time since my last entry. I know, I say that EVERY time, but it's true, isn't it?
Winter is coming over here! I don't know how that's supposed to be as important as to be in a journal entry, but I felt like writing it nonetheless. Because for me it's a quite eventful time. I'll be writing my final exams (called Abitur over here) in January and I'm getting all sentimental with school now... Last Wednesday I wrote my last math test EVER. Oh what a relief!
And although I probably should have learned for my minor classes as well (I'm writing a test tomorrow), I did what I had do to in order to be happy. I designed a logo for the deviantWEAR logo contest. All day long! (Well, I got up at 1pm... so the day wasn't that long anyway...)
I'd really appreciate it if you took the time to have a look at it
fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8
(Yes, it's all the same link And yes I know that you COULD click the image to the left, where my other submissions are... but hey, let's have a bit fun the night before halloween 
)
You know, I'm just really depressed that I couldn't do it earlier as I couldn't find the time at all So now I lay all my hopes on all those wonderful people on dA Yes, I mean you of course There's still a bit time left for voting
So if you like it, I'd appreciate every single vote!
Last but not least, I want to thank you for reading this journal and for having patience with me. I will submit some work in the future, I promise! It's just not the right time, all I manage to do is sketching or planning cosplays.
But for now, have a nice Halloweeeeen and a nice November and December! Gosh, it's only two months until 2012... Oh, how time goes by. I sound like a grandma.
Bye bye
It's been an awfully long time since my last entry. I know, I say that EVERY time, but it's true, isn't it?
Winter is coming over here! I don't know how that's supposed to be as important as to be in a journal entry, but I felt like writing it nonetheless. Because for me it's a quite eventful time. I'll be writing my final exams (called Abitur over here) in January and I'm getting all sentimental with school now... Last Wednesday I wrote my last math test EVER. Oh what a relief!
And although I probably should have learned for my minor classes as well (I'm writing a test tomorrow), I did what I had do to in order to be happy. I designed a logo for the deviantWEAR logo contest. All day long! (Well, I got up at 1pm... so the day wasn't that long anyway...)
I'd really appreciate it if you took the time to have a look at it
fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8 fav.me/d4eh9c8
(Yes, it's all the same link
And yes I know that you COULD click the image to the left, where my other submissions are... but hey, let's have a bit fun the night before halloween ) You know, I'm just really depressed that I couldn't do it earlier as I couldn't find the time at all
So now I lay all my hopes on all those wonderful people on dA Yes, I mean you of course There's still a bit time left for voting So if you like it, I'd appreciate every single vote!
Last but not least, I want to thank you for reading this journal and for having patience with me. I will submit some work in the future, I promise! It's just not the right time, all I manage to do is sketching or planning cosplays.
But for now, have a nice Halloweeeeen and a nice November and December! Gosh, it's only two months until 2012... Oh, how time goes by. I sound like a grandma.
Bye bye
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Japan
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Wow, I can't believe my last Journal entry was the one from a year ago... from my last Birthday.
So much has happened since then. So much. Not only in my life, which has pretty much changed because of a certain reason, but the whole world has been changing. The revolutionary wars in the north of Africa and not to forget the disastreous earthquake that hit Japan, which I would like to talk about now.
It's terrible and I'm feeling with all the people who lost their home, beloved ones, still being in fear of losing even more.
Natural catastrophes won't stop, they will always happen at a certain time and you can't stop them. The Japanese, living in a place where earthquakes are common, knew that and prepared their lifes in order to protect themselves. And you can see that they could manage to succeed, even though nearly 30.000 people have lost their lives - look at the Tsunami that hit Indonesia in 2004, where 230.000 humans died.
But nonetheless their misfortune continued to grow, you all know what is happening in Fukushima.
But do we really know?
Do you think you have enough knowledge so that you can talk about all these events without being unsure about what is really happening?
Personally, being a fan of Japan, I would like to know how the people there feel about everything. You see things on TV or listen to they news on the radio, but can you experience what they are going through right know?
Are they afraid of nuclear pollution and radiance? How do they manage to live (especially people, who have lost their home)? Or are the able to continue their everyday life? Are they OK with what Japan's politicians say? How do they feel about help coming from other countries, even it is just an encouraging little message of internet users on facebook (or deviantART)? What do they think about the broken economy?
Are they confident that everything will be alright again?
Sharing the same fate, they are holding together, and I'm amazed that they seem to manage to live through this pain.
But I would love to know more than simple information. Because emotions are what makes us human. But only if we can understand and relate to them, we can connect.
Do you happen to know someone who lives in Japan or are you maybe living in Japan yourself, so that you could talk about it a bit? It doesn't have to be much. An opinion, a point of view of someone who can really see and feel what is going on in Japan right know, that would be all.
Just the truth.
Thank you for reading
If you would like to contact me, comment on the Journal, my page or simply send me a note. Much appreciation to those who do
So much has happened since then. So much. Not only in my life, which has pretty much changed because of a certain reason, but the whole world has been changing. The revolutionary wars in the north of Africa and not to forget the disastreous earthquake that hit Japan, which I would like to talk about now.
It's terrible and I'm feeling with all the people who lost their home, beloved ones, still being in fear of losing even more.
Natural catastrophes won't stop, they will always happen at a certain time and you can't stop them. The Japanese, living in a place where earthquakes are common, knew that and prepared their lifes in order to protect themselves. And you can see that they could manage to succeed, even though nearly 30.000 people have lost their lives - look at the Tsunami that hit Indonesia in 2004, where 230.000 humans died.
But nonetheless their misfortune continued to grow, you all know what is happening in Fukushima.
But do we really know?
Do you think you have enough knowledge so that you can talk about all these events without being unsure about what is really happening?
Personally, being a fan of Japan, I would like to know how the people there feel about everything. You see things on TV or listen to they news on the radio, but can you experience what they are going through right know?
Are they afraid of nuclear pollution and radiance? How do they manage to live (especially people, who have lost their home)? Or are the able to continue their everyday life? Are they OK with what Japan's politicians say? How do they feel about help coming from other countries, even it is just an encouraging little message of internet users on facebook (or deviantART)? What do they think about the broken economy?
Are they confident that everything will be alright again?
Sharing the same fate, they are holding together, and I'm amazed that they seem to manage to live through this pain.
But I would love to know more than simple information. Because emotions are what makes us human. But only if we can understand and relate to them, we can connect.
Do you happen to know someone who lives in Japan or are you maybe living in Japan yourself, so that you could talk about it a bit? It doesn't have to be much. An opinion, a point of view of someone who can really see and feel what is going on in Japan right know, that would be all.
Just the truth.
Thank you for reading
If you would like to contact me, comment on the Journal, my page or simply send me a note. Much appreciation to those who do
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I Love my Friends
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BIG WOOHOO for today
Or actually for March 15, my birthday
My friends gave me a present, an awesome one that is
-> TABLET
-> TABLET
-> TABLET!!!!11!!
Yesssssssssu, I've got a drawing tablet and I'm KIND OF happy now
I have to figure everything out and get used to it, but it's so cool
I could play with it all the time.
And I only received it today, cause it wasn't delivered in time My friends gave me an "Imaginary Drawing Tablet" on my birthday It looks so funny
Well well, good news
But even though a tablet is a cool thing, I want to keep drawing on paper anyway. It's just a very different thing even though it's almost the same.
I feel like having accomplished more when I draw something on paper than when I draw it digitally. It's so much easier digitally and when I draw on paper I'm aware of my mistakes and can improve
Just a little theory ... but it's kind of the same with playing a computer game and playing a board game.
So long!
~Ren
Or actually for March 15, my birthday
My friends gave me a present, an awesome one that is
-> TABLET
-> TABLET
-> TABLET!!!!11!!
Yesssssssssu, I've got a drawing tablet and I'm KIND OF happy now
I have to figure everything out and get used to it, but it's so cool
I could play with it all the time.
And I only received it today, cause it wasn't delivered in time
My friends gave me an "Imaginary Drawing Tablet" on my birthday It looks so funny Well well, good news
But even though a tablet is a cool thing, I want to keep drawing on paper anyway. It's just a very different thing even though it's almost the same.
I feel like having accomplished more when I draw something on paper than when I draw it digitally. It's so much easier digitally and when I draw on paper I'm aware of my mistakes and can improve
Just a little theory ... but it's kind of the same with playing a computer game and playing a board game.
So long!
~Ren
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EPIC February Journal Entry of 2010 D:
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Heyho
Long time no see.
I know. It's my fault. I've been so busy... and lazy... and kind of myself, so that's busy and lazy in one. D:
Ehm yeah just to let you know I'm still alive out there, or here xD
I've been working on sketches the whole time, mostly for my Manga project. Don't worry, you won't be confronted with something like a Manga or ... well it's progressing. I haven't started but everything is a bit clearer now, especially the characters and the plot.
Blabla, I didn't want to talk about it much because I want to go to bed soon I'll tell you about it in my next entry.
I just wanted to tell you that I looked at some of my "old" drawings yesterday and found some that are pretty good actually. But for some reason I've never submitted them D:
So I'll do that in the next days. Tomorrow I think.
We're doing a lot of fun things in my art major class as well :3
We made hands out of clay, I got 14 points (15 is the highest and very rare) but it still has to... ehm what's the word D: You put it in a special oven and well then it's more stabil. I'll post some picture of it when I get them.
So blabla end of story.
I'm gonna submit some things soon and write some more things if you want
Keep calm and carry on :]
~Ren
Long time no see.
I know. It's my fault. I've been so busy... and lazy... and kind of myself, so that's busy and lazy in one. D:
Ehm yeah just to let you know I'm still alive out there, or here xD
I've been working on sketches the whole time, mostly for my Manga project. Don't worry, you won't be confronted with something like a Manga or ... well it's progressing. I haven't started but everything is a bit clearer now, especially the characters and the plot.
Blabla, I didn't want to talk about it much because I want to go to bed soon
I'll tell you about it in my next entry.I just wanted to tell you that I looked at some of my "old" drawings yesterday and found some that are pretty good actually. But for some reason I've never submitted them D:
So I'll do that in the next days. Tomorrow I think.
We're doing a lot of fun things in my art major class as well :3
We made hands out of clay, I got 14 points (15 is the highest and very rare) but it still has to... ehm what's the word D: You put it in a special oven and well then it's more stabil. I'll post some picture of it when I get them.
So blabla end of story.
I'm gonna submit some things soon and write some more things if you want
Keep calm and carry on :]
~Ren
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