Only one year has passed since my last journal entry, that might be a new record!
Who am I kidding, I might be the laziest person on earth. I graduated from school in March and I could have drawn all summer long, but instead I pretty much had no motivation whatsoever and failed to use the time I had The best I could manage was sketching a load of anatomy stuff in my sketching book for a month before I lost motivation again. Then I did lots of cosplay stuff for a while (which I will post here too someday) and now, suddenly, I'm in the mood of drawing again. Which is good, no question, just that it came too late.
But the reason I wanted to write a journal is not my new motivation but something that just happened to me. In search for watercolour paper I found my old works again. Works from years ago.
And I must say, I was quite shocked. No, not because they were THAAAAAT bad (although there were some of these as well ), but because they were surprisingly good and yet I never posted them. Some of them are better than what I posted here during the same period of time and I wonder why I never showed anything of it. Most of the work is Naruto fanart stuff and of course there are mistakes in it and of course I could draw it better today, but still... considering some of them are like 5 years old, I get the feeling that I haven't improved much, haha (Although I am definitely sure that I have improved.)
I'm not sure yet if I'm feeling depressed or motivated because of that But seeing all those old works made me nostalgic and I could remember drawing almost every single one of them. That's what I actually love about fanart - you put your heart into drawing your favourite characters because, even though they are a work of fiction, you become attached to these characters and letting them come to life with your own hands, in your art, is such a rewarding feeling. It might be even totally different to creating your own characters. At least that's how I feel about it.
On another note, a few days ago I watched the first Naruto movie and I lost count of how many times I have seen that movie. But I still love it, it is one of the very few movies that I can watch over and over again without getting bored by it. I guess it is because of the really nice story which fits so well in the Narutoverse (unlike all the other movies) and the constellation and the interactions of the characters. But maybe it is because it reminds me so much of the very beginning of Naruto (the Land of Water arc), which is still my all time favourite part of the whole series.
I don't know if you all follow the japanese manga, so I will not spoil anything, but the recent events are probably the reason of why I became so nostalgic about naruto again,
[SPOILER: obviously because of the whole Obito revelation, but in particular it's that one scene where Naruto says that he won't let his friends get killed and Kakashi remembers the time when he said those exact words to Naruto. It might be only about 3-4 years in Narutoverse, but it's been so much longer for most of us readers. That iconic scene from the very beginning, I-- I don't even-- Kishimoto, STAHP! ALL THESE FEELS D: It actually made me cry. SPOILER END]
A lot of people are complaining about the course the manga has taken but I absolutely love it so far, although I'm still waiting for a lot of answers.
Nostalgia is such a weird feeling. You go all "aaaaw" when you come across something that reminds you of your past and your youth and I love this feeling. Though often enough it makes me sad as well.
How do you feel about nostalgia?
Thank you for reading! As soon as I'm done with drawing artwork for my university application, I'll do some more fanart. I hope I will never lose the motivation to draw again
I hope you all have a great day/week/month/rest of the year!